Okay, let's all be honest now. We've all had that one person we can't stop thinking about, right? Whether it's a boy or a girl it's the same effect. Picture this. You see him/her, you stare for a couple of seconds and then snap your head forward in fear that they might catch you looking. So you go for plan B. You look at them without turning your head, hoping and praying that you catch them looking at you instead. Your heart starts fluttering, you get really nervous for no reason, and really happy at the same time, almost giddy even. But for what? It's not like you've even really spoke to them. Snap out of your illusion babe! They can't make the first move (even though you're wishing they would) if they don't know your interested in them. It's like expecting everyone to know it's your birthday if you never even tell anybody. They aren't mind readers sweetie! So currently in my (not so existent) love life there's this guy I'm head over heels for. Have I told him? No. But will I? Absolutely, and here's why, I have a chance. How do I have a chance? Well, after years and years of self hate and insecurity, I developed a very strong sense of self worth and acceptance. Now when I get rejected, I don't ask myself "what's wrong with me?" I ask myself "what the hell is wrong with him?".Another reason is because you can't expect them to be "THE ONE". That expectation is waaaaaay to high. Someone once told me that you fall in love seven times before you find your soul mate, imagine how much each one hurt after they ended until they got to the very last one. So that's why you don't put all your eggs in one basket, because one day you might trip. Wow, that got depressing real fast....Anyways I am so infatuated with this guy! I can't believe I'm actually going to do this, but I'm going to introduce myself to him tomorrow and see where things go. I will lead by example and do what I say! If I don't screw things up tomorrow I will help you introduce yourself with that hottie stranger with a to do and not to do list of how to make the first move. Wish me luck!
Always with love,
Ari
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